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I'm So Far Away From Hope
I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
Promises Of Today
Promises Of Today

The sands of time can be unpredictable
But to mold them is impossible
And being let down is typical

I, for one, know what it's like
Having that unrelenting doubt dwell inside
And withstanding all of those tears that aren't dried

With that said
I want to help you, my dear friend
For the hope of happiness is within the reach of your hands
-
I need to apologize for not always being there
It's because I have my own slate
But now I'm finally here
I'm sorry I'm late

I've been where you are
I've seen what you've seen
And I was able to break through the dark
But I'll go back for you, just to help you believe

That
Ashes Of Tomorrow
Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
-
I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel
No More Therapy
No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
Plead For Release
Plead For Release

God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction

I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
-
I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please

Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
-
God, I was never really one for confrontatio
Breaking Out Tonight
Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,
Aura: The Radiance
Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
Shadow Sun
Shadow Sun

And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My   vision   has   adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My   light   has   faded

The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My   hope   has   been   obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My   destiny   was    always   fated
-
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fa
Era Of Silence
Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No,   not   anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My   pure   torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do
Wings Of Darkness
Wings Of Darkness

I seek your help to become the unseen
Guide all of this pain back into my lies
Please, never let me experience this again

I need you to blind me from the light
Cease the false hope from shining in vain
Push back the blood and tears so I won't cry

My warrior
Sheath me between your hollow feathers
My defender
Keep me in your tight embrace forever
-
Turn every sad day into calm night
Burn the radiating sun out

Darken the dreaming sky
Let the fading clouds melt

Lock away this cruel gift of sight
I no longer want it

Shut out the world from you and I
I yearn for this

Take away this self-hatred
Bring back my in
Wings Of Fire
Wings Of Fire

Damages have been reversed
I have so many flaws to be purged
Tempted for the gift of death to end this living curse

I plead for you to pass the torch
Hand over the destiny I've been waiting for
I can no longer endure this unbearably slow dirge

My burner
Send me off to the fiery abyss
My ignitor
Free me from life's grip
-
Weep not for past sins
Leave behind those memories
Weep not for scarred skin
Forgive those memorable tragedies

Let go of that darkness within
Grasp onto serenity
Lift up the veil for the ending
Hold onto clarity

Choose peace over pain
Pick calm over chaos
Choose love over hate
Pick freedo
Still Fighting Back TearsA ball forms in my throat
And tears begin to form
So I begin to push them back
I mustn't let them show
I mustn't show you my pain
How much I'm suffering
For I feel that if I do-
It would show that I've given up
That after so long, I've given in
And I will not let that happen
Alcohol Fueled Words
Alcohol Fueled Words

Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack

Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven

-
You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me

You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y
A Voice In The Wind
A Voice In The Wind

I can only think of how much I miss you

The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls

On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs

I can only remember of how much I loved you

I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done

Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
-
I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy

Winc
Silent Faith
Silent Faith

My trembling hands
Don't want to come together

I refuse to feel weakness
Oppress the confessor

I will defy the defeat
Of my body and mind

And my tears will freeze
So I...will never cry
-
I was once told
That I have to be strong
But a child can never grow old
When reminded that every action is wrong

I didn't need to know
That strength was everything
I would have given up a long time ago
Because that is my hollowed instinct

Take back every single breath / Take back those moments I lived
I am not some stepping stone / I am not meant to have a torn soul

You can only push so much / I can choose to give up
You're the only one w
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Wings Of Light
Wings Of Light

Upon me is the last dawn
Faded away has the last dusk
I leave behind all of the rights and wrongs
I don't deserve an afterlife that is also rough

Mesmerized in deep suspense
As I await the final arrival
My tears become so intense
These last moments of hope are vital

My bearer
Allow me to break away
My deliverer
Accept the toll of my undying faith
-
I was careless as I fell
Mocking life itself

Every secret I held
Defined a broken side of myself

An inner slaughter I could not defend
A one-sided war that I could not fight against

My downfall is what I didn't want to prevent
I always lusted after the idea of
S. Note
S. Note

Dear mother, dear father
Dear brother, dear sister

Don't worry, you still have each other
And without me you're all so much stronger
Leave me behind and let me go, I promise the days will get brighter

Dear teachers, dear counselors
Dear therapists, dear doctors

You have my gratitude for what you all did
But I hit rock bottom too many times, and this last one was it
The end of the road again, as if no one could have kept me from a coffin
-
I was not fit to live life
I failed at everything, every time
I sincerely did my very best, I really tried
I just could no longer stand feeling so powerless inside

I lay wide awake ev
Frozen Whirlpool
Frozen Whirlpool

Somewhere...in the ocean
There is a whirlpool...that is...frozen
-
I no longer had anything keeping me bound to this world
You were my love, you were my chain, and my heart was a link
And I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing your face anymore
So my knees gave, as I let my thoughts break, and I forced myself to sink
-
Somewhere...in the darkness
There is a soul...which became faithless
-
All those memories down the drain
I feel the bitterness of hope
While my tears rain
I cannot cope
-
Somewhere...in the depths
There is a spark...cradled by emptiness
-
My pain will always remain in time
As I never w

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The Unseen Life

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The Unseen Life

I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes

I realize that I am brokenly made
-
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess

Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline ascends into the clouds
As this reality begins to dream

This world has truly abandoned me
-
I keep on doing what I've done
So I can't deny that I've forsaken hope
I couldn't stop the emptiness once it had begun
But I had no other choice, because I was left alone

All I have ever had was myself to disown
-
Dawning self-hatred with no end
I could only loath it silently
Can't take back what I said
Love is just a fantasy

I was born to mourn regretfully
-
Something that no condolences can ever express
My swift judgment was ruled secretly by thee
Guilt and blame was a part of your sentence
So I am what finally remains to be

I wish this life of mine could be unseen

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~TheWolfsFriend Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well written, and somewhat depressing. The really sad thing, though, is that this is how I feel a lot of the time, although not as intensely as you described.
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~ImmortalizedLies Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Aww :(
Well I hope you don't feel like this ever again!
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Mood: Love ~Aaron-Jay Sep 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
wonderful poem! and the artwork you've attatched is simply amazing... O.o I bow before you.
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Mood: Wow! ~ImmortalizedLies Sep 18, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! I'm just glad you enjoyed all I had to offer with this one. The artwork was kind of rushed, I could have made it better, but yeah, I might go back and remake the cover, sometime down the line.
Thanks again! :D You're too kind.
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~Aaron-Jay Sep 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
you're to modest!:) It doesn't seem rushed at all. It's wonderful. ^_^ :dance:
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*Odoms-Spire Sep 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
WOW! This was awesome! Love the depth and emotion in this not to mention the dark feel. :love:
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Mood: Joy ~ImmortalizedLies Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I tried my best with this one, so thank you. I am so glad you found this piece to your liking. :)
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*Odoms-Spire Sep 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Very much so! :)
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