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The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking

Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental

My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me

Far too long have I been on my life's edge
Looking down, and backing out of my own hollow threats
But I swear that one of these days I won't wait to die from old age
I will skip to the last chapter, and write the ending in blood, soaking the page

All it takes is this lowly coward to guide the blade
Across the surface, to let out rivers of blood from my veins


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Every step that I took was not wrong, nor right, but it was my own / my own
Every night I peered into that dirty mirror, and I said that I won't / I won't
I guess it's just takes longer to become unbroken / to become unbroken
Tear by tear, I need to let the past be forgiven / past be forgiven

Trying to pull myself together after a breakdown / it's impossible to get used to
Though I can't help it when I have a falling out / I just can't accept the truth

I learned to hate myself at a young age / my childhood was blinding
I wasn't taught to deal with this rage / my adulthood is crashing

What doesn't kill me is supposed to make me stronger, so I have to live in misery
I always pick myself back up, while having to use my relinquished bravery
For I cannot let myself win, or even lose, this is a pointless inner-rivalry
My dire downfall is also my triumphant rise, it's such a cruel tenacity

All it takes is this selfless hero to pull the blade away
Out of reach, so I can let myself live for another day
The only one who can save you is yourself
So go to the mirror and ask for your help
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This poem is written for my newest project which is titled "The Prodigy's Suicide"
In volume five: Memories Of Nothing
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Copperfrost Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012  Student General Artist
Such raw, powerful emotion @u@
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I was always told that this one is very hard to read, for some people.
I hope you got to enjoy it. This one is kind of....weird for me :P
<3
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HikariNoMelody Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012
I am so cowardly as to shy away from life,
and try to leave it all behind, this pain and the strife.
All I have to do is simply raise the knife
and push it in far too deep to extinguish my life.
I look at myself and I see two faces like jokers, frown and smile in place.
I am masked in two different entities, but which is my true face?
One tells me all is well, I will be fine, I can stay strong
but the other screams in agony, yelling the other is wrong.
One grabs the knife, the other a shield, and war is waged inside
But the true me is left to be tangled up in this wild ride.
A child cries inside me, an adult cringes in fear
another child laughs with joy, the adult cannot hear.
My history and my dreams are all intermingled in one,
and I have no idea which one is real, they bleed together and run.
I am confused, the knife draws closer, I shake as I put it away.
The hero inside decided to win and let me live another day.
as I whisper comfort to myself and tell me it will be okay.
just another day, just another day, another day, another day....
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shadow20x Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012
It's lacking true emotion...I can look at the picture and say that your not in pain but rather your just posing.
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Right....because that is in fact -not- me in the picture, and this piece is a poem...with a preview....
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insomatic-studios Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
Wow :faint: this is amazing! So much emotion comes out! :+fav: Would you mind maybe reading this:[link] and some of the other chapters? I would really appreciate it! Your literature is amazing!
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'll check it out when I get some time, it looks pretty long :P Thank you.
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MandyB82 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
:huggle:
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SkylarKale Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Student Writer
I love your description.
The only one who can save you is yourself
So go to the mirror and ask for your help
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Heh, well I'm glad you liked something from this ^.^ <3
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Manigran Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
And I also like your username.
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Manigran Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is amazing. Well written, vivid imagery, powerful. Nice!
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:) Thank you, I'm humbled by your compliments, I was real nervous with this piece. <3
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Manigran Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome.
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green0eyes Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
this is beautiful and sad and real all at the same time. i knew someone who took their own life and they were only 15 and this is like their story that was never told.

people tended to focus on the person they thought they knew and can't understand why they would do something so awful to themselves. but reading this people would understand the emotions and struggles the person went through to come to the decision they made. at this point we would be at the end of the first section of your work.

but its nice to know that as you read on people can overcome their helpless feelings and walk away from the easy way out. death is easy; its life that is the real struggle but its worth the fight.
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Aww :'( 15 years old is so young :(

But as you kind of said, everyone has their own individual struggles, and sometimes its harder to understand what another person is going through.

I'm glad you got the message I was trying to get across. Thank you for taking the time to read this piece. <3
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green0eyes Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
my time was well spent reading this. it was amazing and it made me remember that boy and his family cuz i had forgotten them for a while. sometimes our own lives can be so hectic that its hard to remember others.
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AstridPurins Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I like this... it's a little confusing, I'm not gonna lie, but I really like it, it's very visual and everything! (:
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'll try explain as best as I can.
The title means the main person is both the coward, and also the hero. The concept is that the person is suicidal in a way, but that they also stop themselves from doing anything. And it's a cycle, it just keeps happening over and over, day after day.
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AstridPurins Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Interesting. Almost as though they have no will - to live or die.
Really clever (:
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yes! Exactly that :) It's a weird concept though, right?
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AstridPurins Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah.. but I really do like it, I find it imaginative (:
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kartiksharma Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Student General Artist
Great job!!
I can stand up and applaud!!
I just love this one!!!!♥
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Woot woot! Lol, thank you so much, I'm so delighted that you liked this.
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Zakaef Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
i need to go write now. thanks for the inspiration!
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Oooooo, I wanna read whatever you come up with! I'll keep my eye out for it. :) And I'm glad this inspired you.
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Zakaef Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
well, it is finished. i work fast.
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Awesome, I look forward to reading it when I get a chance :)
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Zakaef Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
please, take your time.
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Zakaef Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
one, I've finished it.
two, no matter how many times i read this, it is still great.
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kandykitten1994 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
Hey, these would make good song lyrics :D
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I know right!?
Hehe, that's what I was aiming for, kind of. :D
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kandykitten1994 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
All you need now is the plan of the drumming guitar solos and epic violins for atmosphere!!
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Ah, I can just picture it now!
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kandykitten1994 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012
Oh can't you just. Imagine your own concert... a mosh pit in the middle... screaming fans...
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Michel-le-fou Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Professional Writer
Everything is good, including the two-line quotation. The use of italics and bold type in most lines complemented each other, adding vivid emphasis to your expression. I could feel that. [I was reading it mentally] I also know that the change of size in the font has a meaning. Emphasis of a similar type. I have not yet thought of doing that but it will come in its own time.
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
That's good to hear (read) :P I'm nervous with this one, as you said before about my other poem, that lyrics were intended, well this is the intentional implantation of lyrics. So I do hope people find this to their liking, even though it's kind of a hybrid.
:)
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Michel-le-fou Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Professional Writer
Hybrid is variety, and variety is spice.
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ImmortalizedLies Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:) Well, when you put it like that, I have to agree ^.^
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