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The Unread Letter

If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain

I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met

You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
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You said nothing
And left me waiting

I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything

Maybe I thought it was a

The White Cloth

Stain that white cloth
Take away its cleanness, and innocence
Stain that White cloth
Do not think what it feels, think about yourself

The cloth won't stay the same
And the bully, the bully loved to take away the innocence
The cloth is a victim
And the bully, he thinks about his pleasure of torturing it

Either it's a piece cloth, a paper or a pen
When the bully is done, it will never be the same
The cloth is stained, the paper is ripped to pieces and the pen is broken, bleeding it's ink
The bully looks at his victims, with pride, he loves hearing their cries

Never stain the cloth
For in the end, that stain stays
Never stain the

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

I bet you won't read this, 'friends'.I bet you won't read this, "friends".

Sometimes we just want life to end. We want to escape our pain and stop our suffering. We don't belive what anybody says about how life is hard sometimes but that it'll work out and that we'll make it. We're sorry, but we can't belive that in that moment. On the edge of life and death. We don't think about being grateful for being able to walk, see, hear, eat good food, drink clean water and breath fresh air.

Some of us don't even have that.

Unless you're in the same boat as us you do not have any right to judge. We're not hurting ourselves and others in the process, for attention. We are not using the

Dreaming Of Rage

Dreaming Of Rage

I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not

My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep

Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
-
Inner wars are fought / faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists

I don't want to know my true self / different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / we both will reach the breaking point
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The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed

The rioting rage

Only In My Memories

Only In My Memories

The thoughts are like frost-bitten pins
Everything goes numb when the cycle begins

I'm every sin

No hands were lent, no hands to take
Abandonment   abandonment   abandonment
No tears were shed, no tears to make
Abolishment   abolishment   abolishment
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The images are like venomized needles
After the feelings are injected, I'm left fearful

I'm chaotically peaceful

This self-suffering is man-made, so I hope for my own sake
Heart infection   heart infection   heart infection
I thought it was destiny, but I fell for you too

Self-Harm.Cut cut cut cut.
My heart races at the thought.
It's all I can think about.
Blood dripping down my hips,
the sweet release that it gives.
Cut once, cut twice.
Just another slice.
Come on now,
it's no big deal,
I promise it will heal.
My scars are my memories,
they tell my many stories.

Criticize Me.You judge us all, you and your bitter tongue.
You call her a slut, you say that he's fat,
You tell me I can't draw, I can't act, I can't sing,
You say to your friends that I'm ugly and make fun of my hair,
You read all the things I write just to make fun,
You tell me I'm unwanted, uncared for, unloved.
You know what?
I'm done.
Tired of being pushed around.
Tired of being made fun of, embarrassed,
Tired of you and your criticism of me.
I don't have a life? Says the guy who spends his time pointing out the flaws of others.
So What do you have to say now? Going to try and make fun of me some more?
Well, you can't hurt me if I don't

Dependent

Dependent

It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong

Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
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I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains

And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you

Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs

For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away

So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens

Disconnect Yourself [Remix]Disconnect Yourself [REMIX]:

Is it so easy to pull your wire
Out from the inside?
(The kiss of Cyanide)

You drank the poison
And lived a lie
(That you could not deny)

Weathering change
Your mind was like stone
But then it started to break...

Now drifting helplessly
You shattered like glass
Knowing that you're fake...

The empty shell, that you grew
Has started to come undone...

Piece by piece
You're breaking apart; and it weighs a ton!

The wire inside me
The blood in my veins
(A memory of an ancient pain)

Knowing that I
Am nothing but a fake
(The self you cast away)

Dreaming of times
When the world was simple
Not simp

messed up teensThere's no future for me
as I lay here
my head is in pain why
can't you see?

you say it'll be ok
but what if it's not?

tomorrow may be the end
but who knows for certain?

I'm scared yes but my
bravery died out the
moment happiness left

my childhood shattered like
the tiles on the ground I
can't breath I'm trapped...I'm
going to die in a fucked up house

you all say I'm a teenager now
it's all expected from me
it's not ok...I'm in pain
my head and my heart
is the same but
with a thick layer of ice

to cling onto love I'm deemed as
odd as some lonely kid
forgotten and lost
but I'm not so stop calling me
gay...

Timeless

Timeless

Seconds to minutes

There's nothing to show for my on-going patience
All I seem to cling onto is this futile existence

I'm slowly succumbing to the dreadful silence
Too long have I been dependent on hopeful emotions
Nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, thus everything is pointless
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Hours turn into days

I helplessly idle by as life itself starts to decay away
It's just like throwing away the memories of yesterday

Those special moments I held onto, all of the happiness I gave
I thought it was all for something, because it can never be replaced
Though I only have myself to blame, as I continue to let everything be disgrac

Aura: The Radiance

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

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Shadow Echo

I'm just a figment in the glass
My tears reflect the shattered past

I hold the death of a future in my hands
Knowing it can finally be over any second
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Don't waste a precious thought
On what cannot be seen

None of my failures were caught
As I continued to fall free

I cannot be considered lost
Because no one paid heed

Suicidal soul / Tragedy foretold
Fate controlled / Heartless evermore
Silenced sold / Destiny gambled
Grown cold / Bound nevermore

I turned off the switch in my mind
So let the end have its way

This will be the last time I close my eyes
I'm relieved knowing everything will soon fade

I waved good bye to the li

Faces Of Mine

Faces Of Mine

A smile once so true
It changed direction over time
I knew it was there because of you
But it was just belief based from a lie

Hope cannot be granted
And then stripped away
You have left my core tainted
With these wicked games that you play

May it be a lesson
Or turn it into fact and truth
Love won't be as important
As I use these scars as my proof
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These eyes were once so hopeful
It was considered the rise after the fall

But my tears became unfaithful
As pain plunged out of my skull

No passion for the heart / No light for the dark
No love for the liars / No guilt for the defilers
No truth for the corrupted / No solace for

Drowning Out The World

Drowning Out The World

I find myself in the sounds
I release my pain in the lyrics
Enveloping peace is found
The vibes calm my spirit

But when silence falls
Reality and time stop
And then my mind floods
With ever-consuming thoughts
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The walls in my head break down
The serenity within goes silent
And every regret cries out
My memories become violent

I get this sensation
That my soul is too damaged

A dreadful realization
There's nothing left of me to salvage

Music is just a distraction
To blind myself from the carnage

I remain behind the destruction
Where darkness has the advantage

Remnants of rhyme hinder
Calling out to me once more
Ne

The Final Act

The Final Act

♪Slide knives through my veins
Put a bullet through my head
Swallow the pills to cure my pain
I will fall towards my final rest♪

If you're reading this
I can't say that I'm sorry

Too low have I fallen
I gave into those past memories

I allowed this to happen
But in the end I was able to find peace

♪Slide knives through my veins
Put a bullet through my head
Swallow the pills to cure my pain
I will fall towards my final rest♪

You tried to help me cope
When I was at my wit's end

But as soon as you left me alone
The darkness made its descent

It's corruption was mine to hone
A shadowy friend that I woul

Leaving Heaven

Leaving Heaven

I'm not fit for the title of saint
For...I thrive with guilt and shame

I feel related to the fallen
I'd...be better off forgotten

Because it's growing on me
This...abomination of self-centered pity

I beg for the removal of my existence
Father...I don't wish to be a disappointment
-
I can't stand my broken flaws
I'm unlike any other angel of god
A soldier, a warrior- is what I am not

So allow me to let go of my cross
Even though it's all I've really got
But I realize that I will always be a lost cause

Emptiness fills every single thought / Hopelessness is what I have wrought
A clouded path I now walk / Reassura

Stormwalker

Stormwalker

Tread harshly on my nightmares

Make my fears all disappear

Hold me close, my rainstopper

So I won't be alone...anymore
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A night like tonight
It'll be alright
To cry

Tears seem to fly
Within glistening light
So fine

Relieve thy tired heart
Put thy pain in my arms
Allow those woes to depart

The strong are the weak ones / Once the damage is finally done
Crack and shatter my soul / My protected tears are no more
Don't let my sympathy be wasted / My morals won't become faded

I'm leaving my heart open / Don't let yourself worsen
I will always care / I will always be here
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The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

by ~ImmortalizedLies, Apr 23, 2012, 4:10:46 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking

Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental

My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me

_{Far too long have I been on my life's edge
Looking down, and backing out of my own hollow threats
But I swear that one of these days I won't wait to die from old age
I will skip to the last chapter, and write the ending in blood, soaking the page

All it takes is this lowly coward to guide the blade
Across the surface, to let out rivers of blood from my veins}

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Every step that I took was not wrong, nor right, but it was my own / my own
Every night I peered into that dirty mirror, and I said that I won't / I won't
I guess it's just takes longer to become unbroken / to become unbroken
Tear by tear, I need to let the past be forgiven / past be forgiven

Trying to pull myself together after a breakdown / it's impossible to get used to
Though I can't help it when I have a falling out / I just can't accept the truth

I learned to hate myself at a young age / my childhood was blinding
I wasn't taught to deal with this rage / my adulthood is crashing

_{What doesn't kill me is supposed to make me stronger, so I have to live in misery
I always pick myself back up, while having to use my relinquished bravery
For I cannot let myself win, or even lose, this is a pointless inner-rivalry
My dire downfall is also my triumphant rise, it's such a cruel tenacity

All it takes is this selfless hero to pull the blade away
Out of reach, so I can let myself live for another day}

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)by ~ImmortalizedLies

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The only one who can save you is yourself
So go to the mirror and ask for your help
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~Copperfrost Sep 12, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Such raw, powerful emotion @u@

~ImmortalizedLies Sep 13, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I was always told that this one is very hard to read, for some people.
I hope you got to enjoy it. This one is kind of....weird for me

~HikariNoMelody Apr 24, 2012

I am so cowardly as to shy away from life,
and try to leave it all behind, this pain and the strife.
All I have to do is simply raise the knife
and push it in far too deep to extinguish my life.
I look at myself and I see two faces like jokers, frown and smile in place.
I am masked in two different entities, but which is my true face?
One tells me all is well, I will be fine, I can stay strong
but the other screams in agony, yelling the other is wrong.
One grabs the knife, the other a shield, and war is waged inside
But the true me is left to be tangled up in this wild ride.
A child cries inside me, an adult cringes in fear
another child laughs with joy, the adult cannot hear.
My history and my dreams are all intermingled in one,
and I have no idea which one is real, they bleed together and run.
I am confused, the knife draws closer, I shake as I put it away.
The hero inside decided to win and let me live another day.
as I whisper comfort to myself and tell me it will be okay.
just another day, just another day, another day, another day....