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The Unseen Life

I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes

I realize that I am brokenly made
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My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess

Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

Dear My Guardian Angel

Dear My Guardian Angel

I was born with an invisible noose, and as I got older it got tighter
I kept looking for the perfect opportunity to drop, it's either now or never

Dear Heaven / Dear Hell / I am my own executioner!
-
Every night, I lay awake, starring down a loaded barrel of a gun
Aimed at my tempting skull, and the trigger is ready to go off

Dear God / Dear Lucifer / I am not that promising child I once was!
-
I've always stood on the edge of my life with adrenaline-fueled anxiety
That corruption coursed through, and took over, it's too late already

Dear Paradise / Dear Purgatory / You need to wait a little longer, and wait

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

Frozen Whirlpool

Frozen Whirlpool

Somewhere...in the ocean
There is a whirlpool...that is...frozen
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I no longer had anything keeping me bound to this world
You were my love, you were my chain, and my heart was a link
And I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing your face anymore
So my knees gave, as I let my thoughts break, and I forced myself to sink
-
Somewhere...in the darkness
There is a soul...which became faithless
-
All those memories down the drain
I feel the bitterness of hope
While my tears rain
I cannot cope
-
Somewhere...in the depths
There is a spark...cradled by emptiness
-
My pain will always remain in time
As I never w

Wish

Some wish to be rich,
While some wish to be wise.
Some wish to stop that itch,
Others wish of winning a prize.
Some wish to be known,
Some wish they could be a star.
Some wish to sit on the throne,
And some wish that they could hide their scars.
Some wish their life was different,
Some wish their life had ended.
Some wish that they could be indifferent,
Some wish their life could be extended.

We all wish for something,
Maybe one of those mentioned above.
We should work towards that thing,
Even if we wish for just some love.

Ashes Of Tomorrow

Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
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I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel

Flawed Salvation

Flawed Salvation

/Liquid fire\
Sorrow melts and reforms
As heat seeps through my skin
/Frozen water\
Reflections of my childhood are torn
As frost settles on me once again
-
Restless echoes ramble on
Retelling me the stories of yesterday
I remember when my courage was withdrawn
"And you left yourself vulnerable to those crimes of hate."

The liquidsparks flicker
And I wince at that one memory
Then my inner voice suddenly stutters
"I don't know h-how you survived such t-treachery."

Snowflakes descend gracefully
As a cold-burning tear rolls down
I will never know real serenity
"Because all I will ever have is my own."
-
/Br

A Spark In The Dark

A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay Stay Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray Pray Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

-

But you left me for the last time
I

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

A Voice In The Wind

A Voice In The Wind

I can only think of how much I miss you

The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls

On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs

I can only remember of how much I loved you

I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done

Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
-
I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy

Winc

Plead For Release

Plead For Release

God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction

I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
-
I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please

Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
-
God, I was never really one for confrontatio

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

Our Numb Tears

Our Numb Tears

Something deep within me / Is longing for relief
A haunting aura around me / Reminding me of the grief

Scratching at the core of my soul / Hope is swallowed by a black hole
Locked in the center of my heart / All that is left is the traumatized part
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Laugh, smile, blink, and focus. You just need to act as normal as possible.
You cannot let this pain get the best of you. Don't do anything irresponsible.
The damage you do to yourself also effects everyone else, so don't let it become irreversible.
You'r

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The Final Act

♪Slide knives through my veins
Put a bullet through my head
Swallow the pills to cure my pain
I will fall towards my final rest♪

If you're reading this
I can't say that I'm sorry

Too low have I fallen
I gave into those past memories

I allowed this to happen
But in the end I was able to find peace

♪Slide knives through my veins
Put a bullet through my head
Swallow the pills to cure my pain
I will fall towards my final rest♪

You tried to help me cope
When I was at my wit's end

But as soon as you left me alone
The darkness made its descent

It's corruption was mine to hone
A shadowy friend that I woul

Leaving Heaven

Leaving Heaven

I'm not fit for the title of saint
For...I thrive with guilt and shame

I feel related to the fallen
I'd...be better off forgotten

Because it's growing on me
This...abomination of self-centered pity

I beg for the removal of my existence
Father...I don't wish to be a disappointment
-
I can't stand my broken flaws
I'm unlike any other angel of god
A soldier, a warrior- is what I am not

So allow me to let go of my cross
Even though it's all I've really got
But I realize that I will always be a lost cause

Emptiness fills every single thought / Hopelessness is what I have wrought
A clouded path I now walk / Reassura

Stormwalker

Stormwalker

Tread harshly on my nightmares

Make my fears all disappear

Hold me close, my rainstopper

So I won't be alone...anymore
-
A night like tonight
It'll be alright
To cry

Tears seem to fly
Within glistening light
So fine

Relieve thy tired heart
Put thy pain in my arms
Allow those woes to depart

The strong are the weak ones / Once the damage is finally done
Crack and shatter my soul / My protected tears are no more
Don't let my sympathy be wasted / My morals won't become faded

I'm leaving my heart open / Don't let yourself worsen
I will always care / I will always be here
This is what I will always be / The vanquisher of your ag

Shadow World

Shadow World

It's enveloping my heart
And tainting my soul
I've been corrupted by the dark
A new power to behold

I'm too far gone already
Just give in
Accepting my tragedy
A new path will begin

Transform into what I dreamed of
No longer afraid
The road to peace will be victorious
A triumph so great

I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear
I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared
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I know this path is one that very few desire
But what's done is done
Never again will I look into a mirror
For my darkness and I have become one

It's what I've always want

Idle No More

Idle No More

Scattered bravery can and will unite!

Come together and let us stand up for our rights!

Let our voices ascend from this condescending lament!

Rise up and fight against the bitter injustice to the very end!
-
Generations have come and passed
But here has come a time
Where this bloodline may be the last

This is what we call life
Choked by the government's grasp
And abiding by the lies they hurl in a mass

Promises were disguised / Words were lies
We couldn't cross that line / A law where corruption aligns

A home that I can't call mine / A reservation to silence the mourning
A place for the shame they hide / A destruct

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by *ImmortalizedLies, Sep 15, 2012, 1:20:58 PM
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Shadow Sun

And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My   vision   has   adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My   light   has   faded

The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My   hope   has   been   obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My   destiny   was    always   fated
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_{In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fault

In my body, I have been tainted
From all of the damage I sustained

In my mind, I felt everything snap
I smiled as all of the colors turned black

In my soul, I had to let it all go
Cradled by the darkness is all I will ever know

In my eyes, I felt them darken
It's all on me, because I'm the one who let it happen

In my tears, leave a trail of corruption
I have stained my face beyond recognition

In my blood, courses the aggression
I abandoned myself after I was forsaken

In my dreams, are the nightmares of tomorrow
I should have known that I was going to fall into sorrow}
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And in that very moment, I felt the last of my faith dissipate
My   whole   world   has   changed
I lay siege to all of the emotions that filled me with blame
My   star   died   in   vain

Infinite arms of blackness fell into place
My   time   has   come
I will let the darkness finally engulf me
My   shining   shadow   sun

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~TheWolfsFriend Sep 26, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Amazing. Very well written. I do believe many people have had this sort of thing happen in their lives.

*ImmortalizedLies Sep 30, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I guess it's something that hardly anyone can avoid, at least once in their lifetime. I just wish not all of us would have to go through it.
I'm glad you liked it though. Thank you

~Bullcross Sep 16, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Very, very nice and detailed. With a lot of vision and depth. I like how "listed" poetically all the places you could feel with. It's just great. Much, MUCH better, light years away from all the so-called poems that get spread like a plague and somehow reach the top listed. Great job, mate!

*ImmortalizedLies Sep 18, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you so much for your supportive words, it means a lot. I am really, really glad that people liked this one. I was also kind of sketchy about the format, but with you saying that, I take it back. I'm humbled by your compliment. Thanks again.

~shadewalker-94 Sep 16, 2012

Reminds me of a time in my life. And if you can imagine the opposite of what you wrote - that's what happened after.

It would probably sound strange to you, but it was because of Jesus. And He still sustains it and gives me an unshakeable hope.

*ImmortalizedLies Sep 18, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Well, that is good for you

I'm so glad that you made it through something similar to this, because not many do.
I hope you liked it. And thank you.

~shadewalker-94 Sep 21, 2012

Yeah, as a poem it's really good

You really nailed the state/condition of such situations and the emotions with it.

Reminds me of some symbolists in literature. They're really good in that too. Actually they're the best maybe

~LePandapants Sep 16, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Very well written

*ImmortalizedLies Sep 16, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

^_^
Thank you for the compliment. I'm so glad you enjoyed this one.

~LePandapants Sep 16, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

It really spoke to me. I think it was beautiful. Thank you for sharing

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