Leaving Heaven

I'm not fit for the title of saint
For...I thrive with guilt and shame

I feel related to the fallen
I'd...be better off forgotten

Because it's growing on me
This...abomination of self-centered pity

I beg for the removal of my existence
Father...I don't wish to be a disappointment
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I can't stand my broken flaws
I'm unlike any other angel of god
A soldier, a warrior- is what I am not

So allow me to let go of my cross
Even though it's all I've really got
But I realize that I will always be a lost cause

Emptiness fills every single thought / Hopelessness is what I have wrought
A clouded path I now walk / Reassura

Shadow Echo

Shadow Echo

I'm just a figment in the glass
My tears reflect the shattered past

I hold the death of a future in my hands
Knowing it can finally be over any second
-
Don't waste a precious thought
On what cannot be seen

None of my failures were caught
As I continued to fall free

I cannot be considered lost
Because no one paid heed

Suicidal soul / Tragedy foretold
Fate controlled / Heartless evermore
Silenced sold / Destiny gambled
Grown cold / Bound nevermore

I turned off the switch in my mind
So let the end have its way

This will be the last time I close my eyes
I'm relieved knowing everything will soon fade

I waved good bye to the li

Embers In The Rain

Embers In The Rain

My blood contains the power of the sun
Instigation becomes dangerous
And when control is reduced to none
My rage is monstrous

There's no turning back when it begins
I will be searching for a source to blame
I will unleash a torrent of hell from within
For I am known as the bearer of the flame
-
I loath crossing that line
Being locked behind blind eyes

But I won't regret the ruins that I will create
As I leave supernova footprints in my wake

I destroy everything more than once! / My limits are undone!
Infinite ashes haunt darkening lungs! / My heart becomes numb!

Consuming infernos help me cope
As I bathe in the smother

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking

Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental

My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me

Far too long have I been on my life's edge
L

The Road Of Yesterday

The Road Of Yesterday

These  closed  eyes  have  wept
Over  all  of  the  pain  I've  kept
Knowing  I  will  always  be  far  from  perfect
I  don't  know  why  I  was  abandoned  or  where  my  hope  went

I'm tired, I'm just too tired
A moment of peace is what I now desire
Too long have I searched, too long have I suffered

I'm so ready to collapse
These feel

Silent Faith

Silent Faith

My trembling hands
Don't want to come together

I refuse to feel weakness
Oppress the confessor

I will defy the defeat
Of my body and mind

And my tears will freeze
So I...will never cry
-
I was once told
That I have to be strong
But a child can never grow old
When reminded that every action is wrong

I didn't need to know
That strength was everything
I would have given up a long time ago
Because that is my hollowed instinct

Take back every single breath / Take back those moments I lived
I am not some stepping stone / I am not meant to have a torn soul

You can only push so much / I can choose to give up
You're the only one w

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

Cry of the Banshee

I heard a wail so soft and low,
from the wood I caught an eerie glow.
As the night wore on 'twas louder yet,
I laid there still, did moan and fret.

To what did the lonesome cry portend?
I shivered to think 'twas near the end.
Could it be the death of a man was nigh?
I waited for my answer from up on high.

The men who dress in long white robes,
who spread their lies across this globe.
See there! Some who dress in red!
Their councils and decrees fill men with dread.

But the one who holds that staff so tight,
the one who's conquered in his might,
was he the one for whom she wailed,
or will they all go down unveiled?

The sound did fade as the

Shadow World

Shadow World

It's enveloping my heart
And tainting my soul
I've been corrupted by the dark
A new power to behold

I'm too far gone already
Just give in
Accepting my tragedy
A new path will begin

Transform into what I dreamed of
No longer afraid
The road to peace will be victorious
A triumph so great

I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear
I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared
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I know this path is one that very few desire
But what's done is done
Never again will I look into a mirror
For my darkness and I have become one

It's what I've always want

The Unseen Life

The Unseen Life

I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes

I realize that I am brokenly made
-
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess

Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a

Undeceased

Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than t

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

In The Rainfall

In The Rainfall

Pent-up
Overly repressed
Dripping with blame

Thoughts erupt
Pain expressed
Drowning from hate

I felt...
I felt...
I felt your anger

I held...
I held...
I held my pieces together
-
I always wait for the right moment
To finally break down

I need the pain to flow perfect
To let it all out

I'm reaching for my tainted core / I won't let you corrupt me anymore
You will not be a part of me / This is not how it's going to be

I always wait for the oncoming storm
That's the only time

Endure it all until the promised calm
Just to call it mine
-
Set free
Sorrows shattered
I am myself again

Grief released
Clouds scatter
It's gone

Alcohol Fueled Words

Alcohol Fueled Words

Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack

Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven

-
You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me

You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y

Aura: The Radiance

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig

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Idle No More

Scattered bravery can and will unite!

Come together and let us stand up for our rights!

Let our voices ascend from this condescending lament!

Rise up and fight against the bitter injustice to the very end!
-
Generations have come and passed
But here has come a time
Where this bloodline may be the last

This is what we call life
Choked by the government's grasp
And abiding by the lies they hurl in a mass

Promises were disguised / Words were lies
We couldn't cross that line / A law where corruption aligns

A home that I can't call mine / A reservation to silence the mourning
A place for the shame they hide / A destruct

Wings Of Ice

Wings of Ice

Another layer of frost maims
I'll become one with this eternal winter
A triumph over the the flow of time is mine to claim

My past and future will be torn asunder
And I will freeze the pain in my veins
Never again will I be forced to surrender

My glacier
Shatter all that destroyed me
My blizzard
Blot out society's cruel morality
-
I am but a mirror
A reflection of your sins
I am the terror
Let my revenge begin

I'll show you the face
That you made me create

I'll enjoy your screams
Knowing they're not a dream

Your tears will become icicles
Because to let you cry is hypocritical

You are the corruption that fell

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Drowning Out The World

by ~ImmortalizedLies, Feb 8, 2013, 1:52:38 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Drowning Out The World

I find myself in the sounds
I release my pain in the lyrics
Enveloping peace is found
The vibes calm my spirit

But when silence falls
Reality and time stop
And then my mind floods
With ever-consuming thoughts
-
The walls in my head break down
The serenity within goes silent
And every regret cries out
My memories become violent

_{I get this sensation
That my soul is too damaged

A dreadful realization
There's nothing left of me to salvage

Music is just a distraction
To blind myself from the carnage

I remain behind the destruction
Where darkness has the advantage}

Remnants of rhyme hinder
Calling out to me once more
Never again will we be together
It'll be much lonelier than before
-
I only have myself to blame
Self-hate flows through my veins
I couldn't accept what I became
So I tried to drown out the world around me

But now I'm alone in this
The memories and I resist to coexist
As I try and defy this quiet pestilence
I don't want to be a part of the silence

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Like lambs to the slaughter,
Marching one by one.
Inquire the position.
Requite when done.

Bruise the ego
Far beyond repair.
Punish for choice
Encase and encage:
Despair and enslave.

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Where the week lie dying.
Turn the head so sodden…
Don’t let it see you crying.

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Critique by ~nldarkstripe Feb 9, 2013, 8:22:29 PM

i have to say that this might be the most amazing piece of work i have ever seen on this website. i know exactly how you feel about this, and i do this all the time. right now i would just kill to crank the volume up and drown in the music. i love to write poetry, but i can never quite get my feelings across... most people dont understand, and when i read your poems, i feel like i can understand. i can feel your feelings come through the poem, and that is a quality that few acquire. great job.

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~WalkinginDreamlight Feb 14, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

A truthful and honest poem.

I think we have all had feelings like this sometime, where the self-analysis can draw us in too deep, and we find that sometimes it's easier to just let go and float away with the music.

Not liking the return to silence of ones thoughts can be quite intimidating and all-consuming.

By loving music for its pure essence, this is a vibrational lift for the soul and raises us out of the competitiveness of emotions and thoughts within our mind.

Thank you for sharing.

~ImmortalizedLies Feb 21, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you for this insightful comment. I am glad you were able to connect to this on a certain level. A major part of my work is heavily influenced by music, and it's such a wonderful feeling to finally write about the subject for once.

Thank you again.

~WalkinginDreamlight Feb 22, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

You're welcome

I've written a few poems relating to a music theme myself, if you'd like to take a look.

I quite like them

~ImmortalizedLies Feb 22, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I'll be sure to check out your gallery the next time I have time to enjoy a good read, which should be very soon.

~WalkinginDreamlight Feb 22, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you kindly for the Watch, Llama badge and FAV's.

I enjoy writing to give to the world beautiful things to imagine

~dj-dreemz Feb 11, 2013

¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪ Strong & true, thank you. I surely enjoyed this experience (read) & shared your world along the way. Why do some writings grasp and hold? It comes down to an equation of like souls..... that elusive indescribable response, the one we believe may be exclusive to ourselves, but is, in varying degrees shared by a certain others ..... Drowning out the world....may I sink into the depths of musical swirl..... if I cry out.....ignore my plea.....turn away......please do not rescue me ♫♪ •*¨*•.¸¸

~ImmortalizedLies Feb 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I realize that music has the power to do a lot of things. Everyone has a different need for music, so in a way, it effects people differently. I guess this was my perspective on music. I love music so much.
I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

~Aaron-Jay Feb 9, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

first off... thank you soooo much for linking my poem

I really am honored you have put so much energy into helping me.

Second, This poem is a wonderful combination of heartbreak and denial. The person being written about is trying so hard to not think about his/her woes that he/she loses themselves in the music. It takes away all their feelings and their pain. It makes them numb. At least this is what I got out of the poem. I really enjoyed it. And thank you my friend for being such a wonderful person.

Next time you're on Xbox, message me.

~ImmortalizedLies Feb 20, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

You're most welcome, Aaron!
I only put energy into works that deserve them.

I'm glad the concept and message was clear in this one. It's the second revision of this poem. I'm happy with how it turned out. The first one was a bit too complex for my current taste for literature.

I apologize for the late response, usually it doesn't take me this long to clear out all of my messages. I kept saying 'I'll get around to it!

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Thank you!

~Aaron-Jay Feb 20, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

pffft! there is no such thing as a poem being too complex! There's just the matter of interpretation. If the writer invokes any type of emotion from the reader, whether it be what they intend or not, the writer succeeds. He/she reaches their audience.

at least this is how I feel... but I'm kind of a poem slut... O.o

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