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Shadow Sun
Shadow Sun

And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My   vision   has   adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My   light   has   faded

The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My   hope   has   been   obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My   destiny   was    always   fated
-
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fa
Plead For Release
Plead For Release

God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction

I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
-
I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please

Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
-
God, I was never really one for confrontatio
Frozen Whirlpool
Frozen Whirlpool

Somewhere...in the ocean
There is a whirlpool...that is...frozen
-
I no longer had anything keeping me bound to this world
You were my love, you were my chain, and my heart was a link
And I couldn't bear the thought of never seeing your face anymore
So my knees gave, as I let my thoughts break, and I forced myself to sink
-
Somewhere...in the darkness
There is a soul...which became faithless
-
All those memories down the drain
I feel the bitterness of hope
While my tears rain
I cannot cope
-
Somewhere...in the depths
There is a spark...cradled by emptiness
-
My pain will always remain in time
As I never w
The Unseen Life
The Unseen Life

I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes

I realize that I am brokenly made
-
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess

Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a
Unsolid
Unsolid

Even when I'm at my weakest
I still lend you my strength
Even when my eyes are their darkest
I still look out for you the best way I can
-
I'm not the hero of the day
I just know what's right

I'm not some selfless saint
Someone has to bear the light

I don't expect any praise
All my deeds are of the same kind

I need not your thanks
No relief can fill this void in my life

No rest for the wicked / No love for the abandoned
No hope for the innocent / No pain for the departed

I'll give you my all / I'll rise while I fall
I'll answer your call  / I'll serve until there's no pulse

I'm not looking for acknowledgme
A Sleepless Night
A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)

This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows

I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow

Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
-
You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed

You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably

You didn't feel your heart being
Words To Ash
Words To Ash

My embers burn / A fire roars
My inner war / A blaze of words

I wrote this for you
I wanted you to read it, I really wanted you to

But instead I kept it
So my pain remains hidden

Because I know that I'll probably never see you again
Which means I must find another way for me to be forgiven

Even if it's just a placebo effect
In order for me to try and move on
Because I will always be kind of broken
So this is me trying to undo what you have done

Maybe this has happened to me for a reason
Another   tragic   gift   of   believing
That I don't need vengeance
-
All you have is a life that is ready to break
All you know is how to
A Dying Rainbow
A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
The FallingThe Falling

Upon malodorous rapture of orphaned darkness,
eternal melancholy becomes twisted and hollow
In the severed reflections of sanguine shadows,
we will drown in ruby tears of pain and sorrow

Whispers of odium seep gently into my dreams...
The Raven lingers in solemn clouds dark as coal
My blood surges like a chorus of bitter requiem
And my lips — the anathema of your dying soul

Dark lust hums like a cold tide of weeping voices
Perfumed in ash & bone, hallucinations imbue —
Blood soaked robes hang from my slender bride,
shimmering like scarlet threads under ebon skies
After sable petals fall upon my beloved's gra
Ashes Of Tomorrow
Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
-
I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel
Alcohol Fueled Words
Alcohol Fueled Words

Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack

Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven

-
You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me

You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y
Era Of Silence
Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No,   not   anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My   pure   torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do
A Loveless Day
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)

This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the  liquid-silver droplets of rain
-
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done

You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha
Breaking Out Tonight
Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,
S. Note
S. Note

Dear mother, dear father
Dear brother, dear sister

Don't worry, you still have each other
And without me you're all so much stronger
Leave me behind and let me go, I promise the days will get brighter

Dear teachers, dear counselors
Dear therapists, dear doctors

You have my gratitude for what you all did
But I hit rock bottom too many times, and this last one was it
The end of the road again, as if no one could have kept me from a coffin
-
I was not fit to live life
I failed at everything, every time
I sincerely did my very best, I really tried
I just could no longer stand feeling so powerless inside

I lay wide awake ev
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And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My   vision   has   adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My   light   has   faded

The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My   hope   has   been   obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My   destiny   was    always   fated
-
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fa
The Unseen Life
The Unseen Life

I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes

I realize that I am brokenly made
-
My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess

Even in death I will never rest
-
All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a
Plead For Release
Plead For Release

God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction

I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
-
I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please

Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
-
God, I was never really one for confrontatio
No More Therapy
No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
Words To Ash
Words To Ash

My embers burn / A fire roars
My inner war / A blaze of words

I wrote this for you
I wanted you to read it, I really wanted you to

But instead I kept it
So my pain remains hidden

Because I know that I'll probably never see you again
Which means I must find another way for me to be forgiven

Even if it's just a placebo effect
In order for me to try and move on
Because I will always be kind of broken
So this is me trying to undo what you have done

Maybe this has happened to me for a reason
Another   tragic   gift   of   believing
That I don't need vengeance
-
All you have is a life that is ready to break
All you know is how to
Wings Of Fire
Wings Of Fire

Damages have been reversed
I have many flaws to be purged
Tempted for the gift of death to end this living curse

I plead for you to pass the torch
Hand over the destiny I've been waiting for
I can no longer endure this unbearable dirge

My pyre-
Send me off to the fiery abyss
My ignitor-
Free me from life's grip
-
Weep not for past sins
Leave behind those memories
Weep not for scarred skin
Forgive those memorable tragedies

Let go of that darkness within
Grasp onto serenity
Lift up the veil for the ending
Hold onto clarity

There's peace within pain
Calm can engulf the chaos
There's love behind the hate
Freedom can mask the gr

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Dear My Guardian Angel

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Dear My Guardian Angel

I was born with an invisible noose, and as I got older it got tighter
I kept looking for the perfect opportunity to drop, it's either now or never

Dear Heaven / Dear Hell / I am my own executioner!
-
Every night, I lay awake, starring down a loaded barrel of a gun
Aimed at my tempting skull, and the trigger is ready to go off

Dear God / Dear Lucifer / I am not that promising child I once was!
-
I've always stood on the edge of my life with adrenaline-fueled anxiety
That corruption coursed through, and took over, it's too late already

Dear Paradise / Dear Purgatory / You need to wait a little longer, and wait patiently!
-
I'm such a cowardice fool; sick and hysterical; I can't decide anything for myself
I'm abandoned; I'm a cast away; I am the last forsaken, and I no longer have a way out

Dear Friends / Dear Enemies / I'm sorry, but neither of you can help!
-
I tried everything in my power to change, but the damage is over and done
But I'm just too weak to carry on this way, so there is no turning back now

Dear Love / Dear Hate / Send your condolences to someone else, and just place me into the ground!
-
There was false promises, and hollow words that this pain will soon be over
But I always kind of knew that I was going to be the one to end it, one way or another

Dear Family / Dear Nobody / I wish we could have gotten to know each other just a little better!
-
My final hour is here, so I say my long lost vows, and forgotten apologies
The end is near, so I get rid of everything, along with deceit and beliefs

Dear Light / Dear Darkness / I don't deserve either of you, and you don't deserve me!
-
The rope snaps; my neck cracks; the bullet blasts; this breath is my last
I fell off of the edge, and into the palms of my death; my time has passed

Dear You / Dear Me / Peace is finally in my grasp!
-
I don't know if what I did was wrong, or even right, if I deserved to live, or if it was my time to die
All I know is that I was tired of living day after day, and night after night with this kind of life

Dear My Guardian Angel / Dear My Broken Failure / I'm so sorry that I made you cry...
:iconimmortalizedlies:
It's too late
To try and defy fate
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This poem was written for my project- "The Prodigy's Suicide"
In volume six: My Letters To No One
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~Coeb Oct 11, 2012
Dont blink?
I'm so confused, what does that even mean? o.o /Scrolled the comments/

...Anyway, the ending of this, so gorgeous<3
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Mood: Joy *ImmortalizedLies Oct 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Heh, it's a quote from a the popular tv show "Dr. Who" and apparently this reminded a lot of the fans of it. :P

And thank you, I'm glad you liked it.
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~Coeb Oct 12, 2012
Ah, I....never watched that. Haha. ^^

And it was extremely well written, of course I dont like it! I love it.<3
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~TheWolfsFriend Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
First thought: don't blink.
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~MixedScales Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow, this was a great read. and ware could I find the "The Prodigy's Suicide"?
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Mood: Wow! *ImmortalizedLies Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
^_^ Thank you so much, and "The Prodigy's Suicide" is still in the making. All of the poems located in my gallery will all be in the book. So you can read what is going to be in the book before it's released. I hope that answered your question, feel free to ask anything else.
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~gravenimagez Sep 25, 2012  Professional Artist
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Mood: Wow! *ImmortalizedLies Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:D
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Mood: Wow! ~SplitNinja Sep 24, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is beautiful.:clap:
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Mood: Wow! *ImmortalizedLies Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much, I'm glad you liked it. :D
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