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Dreaming Of Rage

I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not

My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep

Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
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Inner wars are fought / faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists

I don't want to know my true self / different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / we both will reach the breaking point
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The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed

The rioting rage

Aura: The Radiance

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

Plead For Release

Plead For Release

God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction

I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
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I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please

Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
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God, I was never really one for confrontatio

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
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The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking

Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental

My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me

Far too long have I been on my life's edge
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My Selfish Rebellion

My Selfish Rebellion

My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds

We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
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Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven

I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen

So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now

I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found

I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this f

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
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Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

Scarmaker

Scarmaker

Your promises kept
Breaking   Breaking   Breaking
I tried to hold onto those hopeful words you said
But you've always managed to hurt the both of us in the end

These tears shed
Seething  Seething  Seething
Down and away like liquified memories of regret
While every stinging mistake rushes back and quickly spreads

My hands left
Trembling   Trembling   Trembling
I find myself feeling lost in this inner emptiness
As all of my love for you continually bleeds out of my chest

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This is our last resort / Please don't say it's so!
There's no trus

Wings Of Fire

Wings Of Fire

Damages have been reversed
I have so many flaws to be purged
Tempted for the gift of death to end this living curse

I plead for you to pass the torch
Hand over the destiny I've been waiting for
I can no longer endure this unbearably slow dirge

My burner
Send me off to the fiery abyss
My ignitor
Free me from life's grip
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Weep not for past sins
Leave behind those memories
Weep not for scarred skin
Forgive those memorable tragedies

Let go of that darkness within
Grasp onto serenity
Lift up the veil for the ending
Hold onto clarity

Choose peace over pain
Pick calm over chaos
Choose love over hate
Pick freedo

The Peace Seeker

The Peace Seeker

Whispers that no one hears

The world is deaf from despair

The sun becomes my throne

As I watch reality become undone
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Someone can be another person's hero
If only love existed

Dusk will break with a darker tomorrow
Another day of being two-faced

Every second- a promise is broken
Every minute- a tear is taken

Every hour- a smile is forced
Every day- a child is born

I stitch my mouth shut / I finally had enough
Silence is my sin / Truth is my friend

Seal my eyes wide / Lies can finally hide
I will witness no evil / I will force another smile

Anyone can be someone's demon
Because greed insists it

Peace is no

Accidents Happen"Fell down the stairs",
The classic line.
She gives this one
Each single time.

The doctor sighs
And shakes his head,
He looks at me
Laid on the bed.

"You clumsy girl,
Why can't you learn
To walk down stairs
Without concern?"

I look at him,
I know the drill,
Apologise
And say "I will".

He gives that look,
The kind that says,
You're lucky to have
A mum that cares.

"Take your lolly,
And go home now.
Mummy will keep
You safe and sound".

Dependent

Dependent

It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong

Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
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I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains

And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you

Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs

For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away

So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens

The Unread Letter

The Unread Letter

If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain

I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met

You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
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You said nothing
And left me waiting

I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything

Maybe I thought it was a

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I stand and begin to walk away from my regrets

Forgive me, Father, for my new path begins
Lecture me, Father, I didn't mean any disrespect
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It's just I know what I know
And it's not any better, nor worse
But it's my own personal choice to let go

Let the last prayers be said! / Let the final hymns be intense!
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Drowning Out The World

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Alcohol Fueled Words

by ~ImmortalizedLies, Jul 3, 2012, 4:01:23 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Alcohol Fueled Words

_{Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack

Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven}

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You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me

You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but you leave their faces blurry
You lock me within a state of mind that consumes all of my untapped fury

You turn me into a monster, so heartlessly
You change morals and intentions too quickly
You win every time; hail to your addictive victories
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_{Intoxicated emotions are limitless
While they continue to riot away inside
Resistance is rendered useless
When the real colors are unleashed to the outside

_{My apologies become silent to everyone
It weighs on me, after I've left you feeling so hurt
If I could, I would take back everything that I've done
I'm so sorry, I didn't mean any of those alcohol fueled words}}

Alcohol Fueled Wordsby ~ImmortalizedLies

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The thirst always wins
Let the downfall of my senses begin
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